LOL Y

Ugh, really been playing scared money lately + loss of confidence has really caused me to make a lot of backwards choices and mistrusts of my first conclusion when making a decision. I really gotta figure out a way to sort myself out because I've cost myself so much money due to this.
Plus on top of making a lot bad decisions due to second guessing myself, I'm running really crappy. Though I definitely could have much more profit than I do now if I was playing the game like I know I'm capable of (like 9/10 of the last big decisions I've made I've done the opposite of my first instinct/thought and made the wrong move like every time, its nearly comical..)

Well I guess this is mostly a personal issue that outside help can't do too much for. (though I suppose some coaching would still help ofc). So I'll kick myself in the ass and focus on sorting my head out, trusting my first conclusion, and definitely catch myself if I start thinking in terms of scared money.

Good luck to me (and you)

I've been up for 30 hours again, damn it. I started playing a session at MGM at 9.30pm Saturday and I ran like the sickest death (as usual.. sigh).. so I decided not to tilt and I finally recovered to a whopping +200 dollars at 4PM Sunday. Then I left.

This is how I look and feel atm

For some reason I never went to sleep. Fixing to hit the sack after 30+ hours of awakeness running on 4 hours of sleep. Shits retarded brah.

Bigredhoss showed up at the house today so that was cool. Big group went to naked fish(super sick sushi joint) tonight:
myth
myth's gf
frinkx
frinkx's gf
bigredhoss
Teej
RobbieV
Nazgul
NIGHT2O1!!!!!
VanDerMey.. fuck I don't know how to spell it
Pooruser
Citizenwind

Fuck there were 1 or 2 others I think but they were across the table and I honestly can't remember at the moment lol.

Was a good dinner.

Also met Fraser and MiPwNYa the other night, which was awesome as they both turned out to be really cool dudes. Played pool, played a sit 'n go with the sick line up of Peachy, Pooruser, Fraser, MiPwNYa, and I. Obviously, Pooruser and I chopped his 4:1 chip lead due to his fear of me heads up. Also played Tennis. By 7AM Fraser was stuck $120 to me in propbets but obviously I got hustled out of it when we all agreed to flip and quite frankly, Fraser is the smaller-stakes Artanis when it comes to flipping IMO. Pooruser got hustled the sickest by Fraser in flips though, so I don't feel too bad.

So things have been good except for poker which I'm sure will pick up and I'll go on a massive heater soon. Definitely been playing an hour or 2 of nl10 PLO on FTP where I will be experimenting and see what I think of the game (I've been having a lot of fun so far). We'll see if that goes anywhere... Otherwise just trying to think about my NLH game and try to sort of hit my next breakthrough

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FUCK I forgot Ket, I hardly talked to him because he was way across the table